Love me not! (Part 1)

It was his call again! “Hey! What were you doing? “He questioned.

I had sweat beads running down my spine. “I was just lying down.” I answered trying to sound as normal as possible.

“With whom?” he laughed and there was a sudden silent from both the ends. I didn’t know if I had to talk or just keep mum. I cleared my throat audibly and told that I was I was not.

“I have stomach ache.” I explained.

“Oh! Didn’t you miss your periods? Or did you eat something unhygienic? I often advice you to eat healthy. Why don’t you ever listen to me? He sounded very low.

I wasn’t sure what would be his next move. He was very unpredictable.

“Baby, are you listening? “he spoke worried.

“Yes  ... yes... I did. Umm I mean I had a sandwich the other day. Since then I am not well.”

“Yes you told me about it. You had one and half.” He said remembering the details as usual.

I dropped the call after explaining him about my routine day. It had nothing great in it. It was Sunday. I had plans to sleep whole day and eat something at the hostel. I had a box of dry fruits as well. I would survive. Tear drops ran down my cheeks. I had to somehow get rid of him.

A message popped from him which read, “Hello baby, please eat fresh fruits. Get few fruits today, or ask your roomie to get few for you. Please get well soon. I love you. Take rest for an hour. We will talk later.”

I felt as if I was getting choked with the passing time.

Another message popped up. “Don’t be online. I will call up after an hour. Take a good nap.” I hurriedly replied him, “Yes! I will sleep.”

“Have you forgotten something?” he questioned…

I knew it; I added “I love you more.” I had tears swelling up in my eyes yet again. I felt the same choking feeling. I tossed my phone on the bed and waited for the hour to pass by.

“Hey love!” he messaged me the moment he saw me online.

“Hi! I just woke up. I am feeling better.” I replied as normally as possible.

There was a killing silence. I sensed he would ask again. I knew he would not let go even one day without enquiring.

“Did you talk to Raghav today?” he questioned. I tried to gallop down my fears. “No.” I replied sounding calm. I tried. “Do you still love him?” he questioned again.

“No.”

“When did his text reach you last?”

“A week ago.”

“Did you reply?”

“Yes.. Just a casual text. It was a long back. I love you Suhas… “I trembled!

“I love you so much yet you make me angry and make me do all this to you. How do I explain to you my love? I know you still love him. I know you do. I also love your sweet pictures…” I cut him in the mid-sentence and promised to stay away from Raghav.

“I don’t believe you. Get on Skype.” He ordered!

I hesitated but I had no choice. I could see him furious at me. His tiny eyes seemed as if he had drunk more than his body could digest. He pushed a smile. A forceful smile and waved at me. I could see his phone. He waved it at me. The very next moment I had the widest smile.

I chanted how much I loved him and how bad I wished he was with me.

“Again!” he smiled but ordered.

“I love you so much my love! I miss you like crazy! I just wish you were here. ” I tried to act as natural as possible.

“He also messaged you on facebook. You did not tell me but you will be excused for this as you didn’t reply him there.

“I love you.” he said and blew kisses at me. I imitated and smiled forcefully.

That evening, I had got few fruits delivered at my door step. As usual I didn’t know who it was. It seemed as if Suhas had people keeping an eye on me. I felt spied at. My every move was watched.

My phone vibrated, A message popped. “Hey hun! What are you doing? Why are avoiding my calls? Everything okay?” It was a text from Raghav.

My heart pounded with fear. “No, it is just that I was not well.”

“Why is your health never okay? Should I come over to see you?” he offered. How badly I wished that he really did come to see me.

“Fuck off! Don’t annoy me.” was my reply.

“You sound very rude these days. What’s wrong with you?” he asked very concerned. There was a pinch of anger accompanied.

I dropped the call and cried myself to sleep……

 To be continued. . . 

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