Love Me Not! (Part 4)

Ritika had a habit of exaggerating everything. “You have got a parcel from that same unknown fellow. I opened it out of curiosity and found a Cd in it.” I grabbed it from her and looked around to see if my laptop was on the bed or locked inside? To my luck, the laptop was inside. She didn’t own one. I feared what if she had watched the Cd?
I tried to relax and questioned, “What is it?”
“I don’t know but there is this letter too.” I wondered what if she had read something which she was not supposed to.
“What is written in the letter?” I questioned looking colorlessly at her.
It states that “You will be in great trouble!” she poked the letter to my arm and sat with a thump. “You were out since long time. I got worried. This letter seemed horrible. She looked at me as if she would hug me anytime. I comforted her. Washed my face and feet and rested on my bed. As if nothing had happened. I was happy that the cell phone remained switched off. I took a nap for an hour. I had the Cd in my hand.
I woke up feeling much better. I took off my Laptop and played the Cd, with the volume muted. It was what I had expected. I looked around. Ritika was studying in her study room upstairs. I played the Cd over and over again. I looked like a stupid lame bitch! The moments of regret coloured me. My history played on the screen repeatedly. It was a 2 minutes 56 seconds video.
These 2 minutes and 56 seconds had thrown me at these levels of suspense and fears! I took off the Cd and broke it into two. I kept the pieces. You never know I could use the same two pieces to puncture down his throat.
I charged my phone. It started vibrating like always. I could see few messages from Suhas wherein he threatened me as well as pleaded me to talk. He called me up after seeing his messages being read.
“Where the fuck are you? Tell me?” he remained silent after this question. I sighed. “My phone was confiscated by the lecturer.” I blurted a random lie. I was a heap of lies anyway. I could have lied about anything in the world to save myself. I loved my life way too much.
He gave a deadly pause. “Explain!”
I had to quickly think of something. I saw Ritika holding her books and walking in. I moved out smiling at her. “Actually my cell phone fell down and I was looking at it. My lecturer thought I was messaging while in the college campus. I got your call too. He saw me speaking over the phone.”
“Ok…How did you get it back?”
“I begged and pleaded for too long. He even read you messages.” I added as he had noticed me reading few messages in between.
“Oh okay. I hope he didn’t read the messages wherein I spoke about sending the Cd to you.” he said concerned.
“Well, I guess he didn’t. I am so sorry. I love you. I am all yours. Just forgive me one last time. Please. I can do anything for you.” I said busy taking off the dried clothes from the terrace. I meant nothing at all. I was only finding ways of probably killing him and running leaving no trace behind.
“It’s ok baby. You know how much I love you right? You aren’t cheating on me no?” he questioned. I had an urge to puke on his pleading face. 
“I keep watching the Cd, I feel so nice looking at you taking off each covering of yours. I miss those days. You were absolutely stunning. The tear stained face of yours baby, it had a glow while you peeled off from your coverings! I miss that Tapasya now. Things were so beautiful back then.” He sighed.
I pumped my fist in the air. It was the time I had to regret. I regretted because he had recorded it. I don’t regret the time. I cut the call making some excuse.
I was folding my clothes and arranging them.
3 months ago.
I had met Suhas on one of the confession pages of Shatapur College. It was by the name Gangadhar. He spoke very funny and commented in beautiful flowery language. He had replied to one of my comments there. He then sent me a request from his personal account.
A little introduction and after a month we were talking about our relationship status. I was committed to Raghav. He was in love with Saima. She was a Girl from his neighborhood. He often complained on how bad their relationship was.
“She is cheating on me Tapasya.’ He had cried over the same topic for the 17th time then. I was busy and was damn tired of listening to him. Yet I comforted saying it would be all fine. Things continued to be hazy between them. I finally asked him to leave her and move on instead of plotting on how to seek revenge from her.
“I broke up with Saima.” He announced.
“Umm that’s nice. You both were anyway not going on well. You must be relaxed now.”
“I have found the love of my life after all.”
I heard nothing further. “I am so sad about Raghav not letting us name the relationship.” I was very upset over this. I had considered Suhas as a good friend. I thought of sharing my concerns with him. He often listened to me also shared his problems with me.
“He is not a nice guy Tapasya. I think you should just call this off and move on with someone who loves you.” He had spoken as if it was a very easy task.
I met Raghav on the same day. “What do you think about us?”
“Stop it Taps, don’t restart with the same commitment issues please. I am not yet settled and I need more time to even think about it. I love you and you love me. It is understood.”
We met a couple of his friend. “Girl friend? The girl in red asked him.
“No not at all. Just a friend. He brushed it off.
I wish he had said yes and thinks would have being normal. Neither would I feel offended nor would I get back to Suhas that night. Neither would he propose to me nor would I say Yes. . . ..
To be continued. . .


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